Shaman Healing

Today was quite an amazing fun filled, active, day. I started the morning off with a glass of water mixed with green powder and MSM - The chemo has been affecting my joints and muscles so I have incorporated this product into my morning ritual. I quickly head off to the Inferred Sauna location on Main St. (Inferred Sauna has also become a new staple) where I sat and mediated for an hour inside this new sauna device which is said to heat up the inside core of your body first, thus heating you from the inside out, and helping to provide a good detox. After this, I went to breakfast at Urth Cafe with my woman, and ordered their fresh green vegetable juice. From here I went to attempt some tennis in the park however only played for 1/2 an hour. Earlier in the morning I had lost a lot of blood while attempting a BM. The treatment dry's me out so much that BM's have created considerable pain shortly after treatment and this morning was a prime example of what I can say is as bad as it can possibly get. I believe I have the pain of going into labor every single time I have a BM for the first 7 days after treatment. But aside from this, life is good and I was so happy to be out in the park swinging my racquet around. After this I went to sun myself for 15 minutes in order to soak in as much vitamin D as possible. I then went home and ingested some cottage cheese and flax seed, along with another carrot juice which I squeezed at home. I then soaked in an epsom salt bath mixed with dead sea salt for about 1/2 and hour. After that I recorded a little music on my new computer and then got ready for the evening. Tonight I went to my standard zen meditation group which takes place every Monday evening, though tonight was a special evening. One of the 13 grandmothers of Napal, a very very famous Shaman and healer was in town and made a stop by our masters home. She was intense and only spoke her native language. Part of me was afraid to go up in front of everyone and let her know about my situation. The people before me had headaches, one complained of a weakened immune system. How was this lady to respond to my intense situation by comparison? But I did go up, told her of my plague, and was met with an unusual pause. She asked the translator for more information, and another guy who had knowledge of the language. She told me I had been visited by ancestors (ghosts) who have not left me alone, and that the 9 planets are ill-aligned to my being, that I had some serious work to do if I wanted to live! She instructed me to make an offering to the spirits, to provide them a plate, and she provided EXACT instructions on what to offer. I am also to create an effigy of myself out of clay which will contain my nail clippings and my hair pulled from my head (luckily, yes, I still have my full head of hair.) I am to place the plate of offerings at a cross road (4 way cross) along with the effigy. Prior to leaving the effigy, I am to attach a string to it, and me, and one of my friends is to cut the string. We will be offering the goods, and effigy in an exchange of leaving me be, and we will cut the cord of this sickness. The hope will be that the negative spirits which have unknowingly been causing problems for me, will decide to enjoy the offerings, and wreak havoc on the effigy, as opposed to me. Now, all of this may seem silly to some, but let me tell you that this lady sees 60-70 people a day in her home town who come from all over, and is considered a medic in Nepal. I am going to follower her instruction, if for no other reason, than life is a trip and on occasion, Shamans provide you instructions on what to do, and I believe it is only proper to follow those instructions. The whole thing was of course a surreal dream, like, what am I doing asking for medical help? I looked around the room and from the look of things I seemed to be one of the healthiest people in the room, and yet this strange situation has manifested in my body, and at such an extreme place. But I am fighting with almost every modality that I can think of, practicing and disciplining myself every day to follow through. Because life is so fun, amazing, beautiful, etc. I am in awe of all that lies in our path when we simply give in and flow with what is asked of us. Aside from a few aches and pains, my butt of course, due to treatment, I feel amazing, healthy, strong, determined. How could this strong feeling body be plagued by such a detrimental disease, which is so deadly? I just can't figure it out. It's as if that part just doesn't make sense anymore. It doesn't make sense, its a word I don't even like using, and my mind will continue to keep me strong despite my illness, the strong medication they drive into me every two weeks for three days. Oh man, is life a blessing. If I am to ever get out of this situation, and be declared "free and clear" it will be the most blessed day of my life. I want to live, I want to live, I want to live and for a solid week out of two, I am living as if nothing every happened, and for that I must continue to be grateful for. My friends, continue to be open to what comes your way, continue to be in awe of whatever it is, sickness included, and LIVE WELL!